Shadow

I can be like you, i can become you, but you cant be like me nor become me, because, I'm the reflection of you, your deeds, your attitude, your ways of thinking, the way you talked, the way you perceive the others, you hate for what i do, but you dont realize that what i do, is what you do, what you always do,

You Hate Yourselves 

soo much even you and yourselves can't carry it, you blame on the others, 

you hate everything that you've done is not complete, and you cant be the best at your very own game. 

and you blame to others for your own mistake,

I am You.

the one you can't blame,

the one who deceive you,

the one who ignores you,

the one who can't be with you,

THE ONE WHO HATE YOU.

but still...

I AM YOU.

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KELUARGA, KAWAN, ADALAH SEGALA-GALA NYA, 

NYAWA AKU, 

MASA DEPAN AKU, 

BERGANTUNG DGN SIAPA AKU BERSAMA,

AKU TAK MEMPUNYAI MASA UNTUK BERCINTA,

MASALAH AKU BUKAN PADA MASA SEKARANG,

MASALAH AKU BERADA DI DEPAN,

PENYELESAIAN NYA IALAH SEKARANG,

AKU MASIH MENCARI CAHAYA KEHIDUPAN,

HAMPIR AKU TENGGELAM DALAM KEGELAPAN,

AKU SALAH,

AKU INGAT TEMPAT AKU DI SINI,

TETAPI KINI AKU SEDAR,

AKU MAMPU MELANGKAH LEBIH JAUH LAGI,

BUKAN AKU MENINGGALKAN KAWAN,

AKU PIKUL YANG MANA AKU SEMPAT,

YA,

AKU BERKAWAN BERSEBAB,

SATU SEBAB,

SEBAB UNTUK BERJAYA,

JALAN AKU PENUH SELOK BELOK,

TAPI APA YANG AKU PERLUKAN IALAH,

KEPUTUSAN YANG BETUL,

YA BENAR SILAP BOLEH DI PERBETULKAN,

TAPI IA TIDAK AKAN SEMPURNA SEPERTI SEDIA KALA,

AKU SEDAR AKU LEMAH,

MENGHIAS BAHASA ITU KEBOLEHAN SAYA,

SEPERTI MADU YANG DI SUAP,

TAPI SAYANG,

PAHIT HEMPEDU,

AKU SORANG YANG RASA,

AKU CUBA BERTATIH,

PERLAHAN-LAHAN AKU CUBA WALAUPUN PEDIH,

AKU SEDAR TAKDIR AKU BUKAN DI SINI,

KALAU AKU TAK BERUBAH,

DI MANA AKU NAK BERDIRI,

HARAPAN KELUARGA PEDIH AKU PIKUL,

AKU BUKAN BUDAK PANDAI,

MAHUPUN BODOH,

AKU KISAH APA YANG MEREKA BERKATA,

CUMA AKU TIDAK TAHU,

NAK SUMBAT DEKAT MANA,

AIRMATA YANG TIDAK MAMPU NAK MENGALIR,

HATI DAN MINDA BERCELARU,

AKU BUNTU SEKETIKA,

AKU BUKAN CACAT YANG PERLUKAN PERHATIAN,

AKU BUKAN SEKACAK SEPERTI BUAIAN MIMPI TIDUR,

AKU TIDAK BIJAK 

AKU BUKAN PANDAI,

AKU CUMA MANUSIA YANG PENUH KATA DUSTA,

YANG DI GELAR,

MANUSIA BIASA,

PERJALANAN AKU MASIH JAUH,

DI SINI AKU SAKIT,

DI SANA AKU PEDIH,

IN SHA ALLAH DI HADAPAN,

AKU SELESA DENGAN APA YANG AKU LALUI,

AKU HANYA BERSABAR,

AKU HANYA MENUNGGU,

KERANA AKU PERCAYA PADA "SUATU HARI"

MUNGKIN SEKARANG AKU BERIMAGINASI,

APA YANG AKU MAMPU IALAH,

BERTAHAN,

KUAT SEMANGAT,

TIDAK BERPUTUS ASA,

BERUSAHA KERAS,

JANGAN RISAU,

AKU AKAN BERUSAHA LAGI,

BIAR LUKA BERPARUT,

ASALKAN AKU BUAT APA YANG AKU PATUT,

SALAM HILANG

ohayou gozaimasu minna!

Ohayou gazaimasu minna san! atau dalam bahasa melayu nya, selamat pagi kamu semua! haha, harini aku tak tau apa yg merasuk aku pepagi ni nak tulis blog kan,haha, apa, kau ingat aku tak main blog ni, aku tak suka menulis la? aku suka menulis lah! ok, sekarang aku nak kongsi dengan korang semua, mana nak follow latest japanese songs sbb ikut kan, kalau korang nak tahu la, sebelum datang nya kpop, jpop dah jajah malaysia dulu, tpi sayang skli tak sebesar dan tak sekuat ombak kpop yg telah melanda malaysia selama 7 tahun, dan aliran nya masih tidak reda, statistik ni aku berdasar kn adik aku kerana dia start minat kpop dari umur dia 12, skrg dia dah 18, ha, kira la sendiri, dan aku still going with jpop sbb bagi aku jpop songs adalah rare dan mostly boleh dpt kt anime SAHAJA, aku boleh tahan jugak la minat anime tpi takkan la aku nak lyn semua anime semata-mata nak follow jpop an, so aku buat research sikit, korang cari la jpopsuki.tv untuk follow jpop song yg takde kt anime or drama ke korang ingin nak tahu an, aku bukan nak jakun ke apa, tpi apa salah nya kita kongsi apa yg kita dapat, hehehe, 人を笑顔に保つ maksud nya, keep smiling guys,  :D ja ne!

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hey whats up guys, how you doing? doing great? thats nice, haha, first of all, let me do a lil bit "coretan" di sini because i do like to write some random stuff, sharing videos on my social medias and everything, not literally my everything but somehow, i feel i'm glad that i get to share something with you guys, haha, well yeah, i do like to read article bout animal and adventure of other people, *if only the world like adventure time with finn and jake that will be fun* ohyeahyeah, and now i'm just typing some random stuff again haha, aaaaahhhhh, i wish i can go on adventure travelling the world with myself, and my friend, if they not lazy to get their ass up, haha, well, today i've already updated my blog with two new poems, well, usually, people describe my poem as fucked up serious mind blowing horror and psycho shit like that, haha, i'll take that as compliment, a very very very sarcasm and bold move sir. people describe me as not a person that write poem, and that is the least expectation from them, seriously, i give my best to hide as complicated and deep as possible my blog and of course, my poems, because i dont want people with such high level of negative critics of my poem, its not like i'm spoiling myself and my poem, but it just, i dont want my poem to be corrupted and false idea to my poem, usually i write poem because i fall in love in words and i eager to learn new words as long it doesn't make my head cramp, you know, for some people, they taking words as direct contact, direct meaning, like me, when i spoke to someone, i like it to be direct and no hiding, but when it comes to writing, i like to hiding meaning, things that you hate, the moment that you love in words, it may looks like plain text and people like, what the fuck is this? and i'll introduce to them, this is your grandma and grandpa having sex in a barn next to the horse that masturbating while looking at them,haha just kidding, what? you cant take a joke? thats ok, i know its dirty, you can complain at the comment below, but dont worry, i wont read it and i simply delete it, herherher, meh, i just messing around man dont be sad or angry, put a smile on that face, i'm sorry because sometimes or most of time i like to swearing waaaaaay alot of and i lost count of it haha. the main reason for me to write a poem because i want to reach 500 poems or more before i died, some people say, why dont you write it on a book and hide it, and my answer is, i'm too lazy to write my poems on books because i write waaaayyy too many and i usually forget where i put my poems, but usually i'll posted my poem that i see it as the best, and the remaining i'll keep it as draft or in my phone just in case of new ideas coming, because, it is kinda hard to find words with such beautiful meaning and align them with your ideas, sometimes it takes a month to think, for me la, hahaha, sebab kekadang, tak tentu, there is one time, i write 5 poems at once, but sadly, i forgot to backup the poem to my laptop and its gone,..it is one of my sad moment,haha, ok that is all for me, i'll try me best to keep the poems and the blog alive,.*seriously, i dont know how to write my blog,but i just write what i have in my mind right now,haha*

Blood Lady

She walk into the crowd,

people silent for the moment,

amaze by her beauty,

a breath taking smile,

hiding deepest secret that prison people heart,

her night thirst of blood,

those innocent eye but heart of devil,

showing no mercy upon human soul,

mask of devil that human fight,

blood shed is what she's ooking for,

one shed of her tear,

they start a war,

the king was deceive,

the queen were killed,

the people living in open eye dream,

but blind by their ruthless reality,

poison people mind with her beautiful lust,

leave them out cold like a spoil of dirt,

dry tongue cant call for help,

dragging people down,

into the pit of darkest hell on earth,

feast on their blood,

red wine with fine mix with human blood until last,

nobody can define what is inside her mind,

darkness coating her heart,

not a single light can penetrate her heart,

black shine of her eyes, piercing thru people true color no one can hide,

one touch of her fair white skin,

people blindly follow her order,

laughing on human mindless mind,

her rage kill thousand man,

darkness cloud conquering the skies,

follow by the thunder storm,

struck on human who defy and denied,

furious wind blow smash away anything on her path,

nothing can stop her,

she have everything for you to fear,

devour on human heart,

the reason of nightmare in beauty night sleep,

collecting living soul on her sight,

the void of hatred exist in her heart,

made her became like this,

once called as myth,

it will be your last breath,

she will seek,

the darkness mistress,

she is the blood lady.

officially made at 9.19pm 18/8/14

first draft at 6.06am 4/7/14

Scarlet

The way she moves,
beauty curve that she made with her face,
the wind blow floating her hair,
her eyes shine makes me can't stop staring at her,
her skin flawless the best design of God,
Too close yet too far,
she is center of attention,
everybody please by her magnificent beauty,
the crowd stop,
stumble by her shine,
her appearance just like the golden wind,
the man dreams when they fall asleep,
the touch of breeze disappear in the morning,
i know my mind didnt deceive me,
i know her and yet,
i cant find her,
the time let me see her once,
but the fate will show her twice,
women in scarlet,.

first draft at 7.17am 7/7/14

About you,

The day when our eye crosses to each other, i got the feeling that you have something special in you, the day when i got the guts to say a word with you, its like a miracle happening to me like thousand year worth for waiting, actually, i have been keeping this everything, my motions, feelings to you for a very long time, the day when we started to become friends, i feel like thank gad i finally get to approach you even deeper, you know, you are the only one that i like to look straight to the eye, because mostly, when i looked to women eyes, i felt nothing, and i already get the feeling we cant be together because i cant see what inside them, except you, its not like you're easily to read or something but, this feeling, its like craving for more and more about you. i keep it close because i dont want you to realize that i have feelings for your for a very long time, you know, when i feeling down and i cant get up, i put my target on you, if i cant get up and change myself to be better person like the one you deserve, i cant dreaming to be with you, so i go out and learn with other girls to see my flaws, which one i have to change and which one is not, this feeling for you, for the first time i felt soo real for this, usually i take bout "this thing" very lightly and to be honest, i dont give a shit bout it, maybe i'll be stress bout it for a lil bit because you know, shit happened and i dont wanna to repeat my mistake again and again, for this time, i'm gonna hold you tight, and if fate let us both to be together, insyallah i'll give my best for you, you know, it is hard to keep it balance between the great power of love and the bond of family, i dont want any of those to be broken, no matter how hard our life hit us, the one who brought us up again is our family, if your family or my family didnt like it, there must be a reason for that, the special relationship that we created with people is not bout to destroy or conquering other life, we created the relations just for enhance ourselves, for companion when we cant face the world, we share our problem and solve it together, the reason i like you because you're special, maybe you're a lil bit "blurred" bout things and thats okay, that is why i'm here for you, and i like your smile, the way you look at me, those eyebrows, haha, sometimes your eyebrow makes me turned on, and i dont know why that suppose to be a reason, your funny looking when you walk, your voice, and your heart that always keep me for going further and further, and the main reason i like you, because my family likes you, they said your the most beautiful person that i ever brought to their life, and you know what, i'm very proud for what they said because, i usually choose the wrong person and making very bad and bold decision, and this time, i know i choose the right person, but, the real deal is, are your family likes me? am i good enough for you at their eyes? and who am i in your heart, and am i good enough for you? for that reason i made my decision to change myself and give myself a chance to slowly change to be better person, by i mean better is the one who can guide you, teach you the way of life, my mom told me " if you want to guide someone, you must know how to guide yourselves first." and my father said "you must prepare for every circumstances in your life, and find who you are and do what you have said, if you all talked, how can you show people what you capable of." even thought i hate to hear their lectures but, they teach me alot of things. and to do this, i need you, to accomplish the life goal, not as my girlfriend, but as family, and by mean of family, not literally my blood but, someone special that i can share everything, my secret, my feeling and my life achievement. its okay that you didnt see me, i'm cool, i can wait, as long as you want, our life is short yet still long journey to go, you got your life and i got mine, so i want us to achieve what we want, and then, we can talk bout your dreams, i want you not as girlfriend or being friendzone but as companion of life. sincerely: hafiz *the most weirdest person you ever seen* 23/11

Magician

MAGICIAN

The stories that you waste,

the smile of lies,

the words of deceive,

master of disguise,

play your script,

pick a card,

let me show you the magic of reality,

put on magic show,

illuminating people mind,

with beautiful imagination of lies,

poof, 

lost,
 right in front of your very own eyes,

the more you hear,

the more you'll seek,

this is magic of deceive,

now you see me,

and now you don't.